Let me tell you something that I just can’t hold back right now. Jesus is beyond all comprehension to me. He means what He says in His Word. He will meet your faith and blow you away. “You just won’t believe what my Jesus did for me.” I used to hear people say that all the time, but I never understood it.
After the past few days, I understand it now.
He saved my little girl. And this mama was eternally grateful before. But now, she is completely and totally surrendered. There is nothing more powerful than prayer. Except for a multitude of people lifting up prayers. It does what I have never experienced before and I will never be the same.
I know there are times that it feels unfair why some prayers are answered and some are not. Some live and others don’t. I wish I knew the answers to this, but like I said before, Jesus is beyond all comprehension to me. Isaiah 55:9 tells us in the Children’s Bible that
The Lord says, “Your thoughts are not like my thoughts.
Your ways are not like my ways.
9 Just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways.
And my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.”
This is the sovereignty of God. What is that? Chip Ingram makes great points here: http://m.christianity.com/theology/what-does-the-phrase-god-is-sovereign-really-mean-11555729.html
We know that He is with us and He loves us and our kids more than we do. So who could take better care of them than someone who loves them infinitely better on a completely higher level than our God? This mama had a lot to learn about turning her kids over to the Lord and leaving them there with Him.
But when she did, He gave them back to her. Complete. Faster. Better and more than I ever asked for.
I begged God for awhile, I will not lie. Begged to trade places. Begged to please keep my girl. Bargained and pleaded. And then I realized that He knew all that. What He needed to see from me was my faith in Him. So I began to thank Him for what I believed He would do. I wanted to touch His hem. If I could just touch Him, she would be alright. If I could just talk to him like the Centurion, my daughter would be healed. If I would just believe in Him like Martha did when her brother was already dead for four days, yet Lord, I know what you still can do. Even now faith. It is not a coincidence that Joel Osteen preaches a message called this on our way to the hospital and told the story about Martha and Lazareus. He gives us hope in His Word. My job was to turn on the radio and receive it. My husband and I looked at each other and knew this message was for us.
We woke up early this morning at our house that our family had come in and prepared for us by wrapping our presents and cleaning it while we were at the hospital. Our kids had a wonderful time together and it had a brighter light this year. We were so thankful for Jesus being born today. Because he is our Healer, our Comforter, our Provider, and our Friend. He loves us so much. Happy Birthday Jesus. You are so amazing.