Warning: Painful Truths Ahead. Proceed With Caution!
I am a professional What-ifer. If only it paid well to analyze a situation, try to imagine every possible problem and then proceed to craft a plan for each scenario. (so pretty much a mother and/or wife. Or worse…both!) However, sometimes it is the thing that you never saw coming that changes your whole perspective on everything. I finally realized that I had an intense fear of the unknown, and it was hindering my ability to learn how to trust God fully. (Or at least more than I was in that moment!) I had to make a decision. Was I going to accept that I am not able to fix or control everything? Can I live with the fact that someday it will come together in a way that I will really like? I thought I was flexible…until the one day I noticed that I was not.
It is so easy to run with my emotions when I feel justified in something. What did I believe and why did I believe it? What am I willing to cling to at my core? Was it God? Or was it what I knew I could produce from my hands and out of my perceived control over an issue. No one can believe enough to believe for us. It is our cross to bear if we choose to.
Corrie ten Boom’s quote that is posted above is one of those passages that you hear and strikes you directly in the heart and you know it has special meaning for you, personally. If the unknown is causing me to react out of fear and desperation, it was clear that I needed something known to hold onto. When my world is shaken without my consent. When prayers go unanswered. When nothing seems fair and you are exhausted from the experience itself. I need a fortress. A shelter of peace in a Kingdom of Uncertainty. A beautiful church to find soul sanctuary. To find rest.
The sea of strife is filled with trouble. Waves of anger and fear crash against a sandy foundation that keeps moving in hopes of not being destroyed by the intensity and span of the pressure from the waves.
How Firm a Foundation Hymn
1 How firm a foundation you saints of the Lord, is laid for your faith in his excellent Word!
What more can he say than to you he has said, to you who for refuge to Jesus have fled?
2 “Fear not, I am with you, O be not dismayed, for I am your God, and will still give you aid;
I’ll strengthen you, help you, and cause you to stand, upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand.
3 “When through the deep waters I call you to go, the rivers of sorrow shall not overflow, for I will be with you in trouble to bless, and sanctify to you your deepest distress.
4 “When through fiery trials your pathway shall lie, my grace all-sufficient shall be your supply; the flame shall not hurt you; I only design your dross to consume and your gold to refine.
5 “The soul that on Jesus has leaned for repose I will not, I will not desert to its foes; that soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake, I’ll never, no, never, no never forsake!”
Source: Lift Up Your Hearts: psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs #427
The Israelite army had a similar showdown with the fear of the unknown during a time when they faced the actual giant of fear. And his name was Goliath. Goliath was more than a bully. He was an accuser of the brethren. For 40 days, Goliath made a special appearance twice a day to the Israelites; and talked so much trash, he would make the modern day NBA players look like Bible College Teammates.
He laughed at their fear and relished in their cowardness. He had a way of captivating his audience with his mere presence. I am sure he wouldn’t have needed any technological advances to be heard. But David, the man after God’s own heart, was the only believer who was willing to put his money where his mouth was. He had a big time trust in who God said he was and took a MASSIVE step of faith when he bent down and grabbed the first smooth stone from the cool waters. Why was it so massive? Because it was the moment that he surrendered his fears on the altar of the Almighty One and agreed.
Agreement is powerful. It strengthens, fortifies, relieves, transforms and creates relationships. Powerful memories (or “core memories,” like Disney’s hit Inside Out portrayed) are made with things like these processes mentioned above. It brings us closer and gives us our own memories to fall back on and evidence that we can never forget who has been guiding us all along. Even when it didn’t make sense, or turned out like we’d secretly hoped for. Do we believe God when He tells us in His Word that He will work anything out for His Good? It is a place I had to hang out and figure out my answer to that question. My husband always tells me an examined faith is a much deeper level of faith. Seekers do this. They long to discover something hidden, special and just for them. But they have to choose whether they can believe without seeing first. The first step is the hardest in Seeking Sonshine. 😄 But the last step will solidify that God really does have a plan. Just because some of the box is covered doesn’t mean we are missing anything. We just can’t see how the puzzle is going to work within itself to produce a picture worth printing on a puzzle. But Someone knows it is totally worth it! 😄❤️😇🌹