A few weeks ago, I began my teaching career at a junior high near my hometown. It has been a roller coaster of a few weeks! 😄😁 How do veteran teachers do it? I don’t know. It is so different than the world I always knew. Corporate was safe and I was good at what I did. Then, the industry tanked, taking my office and job with it. A new chapter in my life opened up and I finally chose what I (and my awesome family and friends) prayed for and sought after for a little over a year. Yay! Thank you, Jesus! Now, how exactly am I supposed to do this and be an example and mentor to students? God, You still equip the called…right? Because…I kind of have a lot riding on that verse… 😉
It’s HARD. Hard because I am SO outside my comfort zone and doing nothing like I am accustomed to. I am not used to relying on God to show up so heavily. There, I admit it. If you looked at my choices in my life, you would probably see the pattern of a tendency to depend on myself to get things done. I know what I am capable of doing, pretty much. I recently, in the past 10 months or so, have realized for the first time (sadly) on a soul changing level that Jesus handles things better than I do. I am hard headed, okay? He has been there all this time and doing it anyway on my behalf. (Again, thank you awesome family and friends for your prayers) And here I was thinking I was so awesome and then there goes the rug right out from under me. 😁
I can get such tunnel vision consumed with whatever projects I am trying to complete at a time. It is maddening. My schedule is ridiculous. Satan’s trick is keeping me snowed under with opportunities that seem amazing all the time. Key word…seem. Not that all things are bad, they could be volunteering for a wonderful cause. However, added to a full plate already can make me feel stretched and ineffective at everything I am doing. And I forget the why behind what I am doing. Oh, and during this time, Satan also likes to help me not get enough sleep and usually throw a virus or two my way after it hits the kids. Yes. It has to be him. Pure evil. 😈
I am more like Martha than Mary. I get worried about the details and what people might think about me so much, that it influences my actions more than connecting with people. And seeking/following my purpose and calling. Instead, I ask for approval and favor from those that I hold in high esteem. But that is not what the heart of Jesus looks like. We are supposed to love people. Regardless of where they are in life or where we are in life. That means even when we are exhausted and weary. And when the other person is rude and clearly in the wrong (and needs Jesus in their lives, right? 😂). We need to refuel on God’s Word to help us. Approval from others, promotions and good intentions don’t even come close to finding the verse you needed right then to calm your soul at a pivotal moment. Those other things are good, but they are not sustaining. They have a shelf life that frequently expires. No matter what we do, the greatest thing we can do is love.
“Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.” (1 Corinthians 1:1–3)
If I teach these kids everything I know, it would not be enough without love. The love and patience is there supernaturally. Because I teach 7th and 8th graders, ya’ll. Enough said. (I would NEVER want to be that age again, especially in this day and age of recording and sending EVERYTHING!)
So…we look to God and ask Him for wisdom. Solomon is a man in the Bible that didn’t always make the best decisions (much like his dad, King David). But one thing he got right that made him realize what life was truly worth was asking for God’s wisdom to speak to him.
Solomon. He completed the temple and brought Israel to the world as a powerful nation as a wise leader who had favor with God. And then, he broke the very same kingdom because of his inability to resist temptation. His mom was Bathsheba and his dad was David. So, maybe it is not 100% his bad??
During his (King Solomon’s) reign he made Israel a world power and great wealth flowed into the kingdom. He had such great wisdom from God that people came from distant lands to here him. He taught many proverbs and wrote Ecclesiastes and Songs. Yet Solomon did more than any other king to break down the kingdom and to destroy its true foundations. His biggest mistake was in disobeying God by taking many wives, and marrying the daughters of foreign kings. He had 700 wives and 300 concubines. He allowed them to build altars to “Astarte” (Ishtar in Babylonia and Astoreth in Phoenicia) the fertility goddess and other pagan gods.
Let’s embrace this today, or at least take one step in that direction. Keep going when it’s hard. Trust in Jesus and His calling for our lives. Embrace our gifts and use them for the kingdom. Solomon inspires us to seek wisdom and continue seeking it, especially when we have temptation to quit. We are modern day Esthers and we are meant for a time such as this. ❤️