We returned on a very eventful trip home this morning. (6-8-18) God showed me so many things and opened my eyes to His Word on this trip. I am only in the beginning stages of processing through it, but I wanted to share it with you. I hope that if you ever feel God may be placing an opportunity to serve anywhere along your path, you say, “Yes. Send me, Lord.” It’s scary and exciting and also terrifying at first. But, friends, it is so richly worth it. ❤️
I did end up getting that suitcase packed and after a nice flight attendant gave me a super strong plastic bag, it even fit in the overhead compartment box. #whew
We made it through security and kissed our loved ones goodbye until Thursday. (Or so we thought 😂)
We settled in to part one of a three leg journey from Oklahoma City, Oklahoma to Port-Au-Prince, Haiti. I kept a prayer/worship/experience journal during the mission to help process it all later and extract God’s truth from it. (Great advice from a fellow Haiti missionary friend!) I didn’t want to forget a single detail. My thought was not to overwhelm or bore anyone, but rather work through the Biblical truths that my eyes were opened to during this time. Please add any comments on anything similar if you feel led. No pressure. 😄
Gorgeous views from our flight in to Haiti.
We were welcomed warmly (literally and figuratively) when we stepped off that plane in Port-Au-Prince. The airport in Haiti is a unique experience. Our experience was tame, however, and we were very thankful! We were quickly ushered to Immigration and worked our way through to see some smiling faces outside. Luke Perkins and Wadestrant Jean-Baptiste (WaWa) were there to greet us and get us out of the airport. We climbed in two different cars and took in the sights and smells of Haiti on a Sunday afternoon. We went to the house we stayed at during the trip, and were met with a delicious meal that all of us were very grateful for after not getting to eat that day!
First Haitian Meal! 6-3-18
We settled in and I began to seek the Lord about opening my eyes to see what He wanted to show me. I was unsure at this particular point in the journey as to why I was there. I had experienced multiple attacks from the enemy to prevent me from going on this trip, so I was very excited to see what God had in store. I was also a little scared that I didn’t have any idea about what I could offer or why I was chosen for the trip. I had fearful thoughts that rang out “What if this was all a mistake and God isn’t going to show up for you here.”
I had those thoughts for a moment and then decided to reflect on His specific promises of if I draw near to Him, He will draw near to me. (James 4:8a) If I seek Him earnestly, I will find Him. (Jeremiah 29:13)
Have you ever experienced similar thoughts? You want to have faith but somehow, you talk yourself out of it?
And what does it mean to seek, anyway? I wish I could tell you there was a certain ritual that worked for me to call down Heaven on Earth immediately. God is not able to be reduced to a formula so we can just get what we think we need. He is so much bigger and better than that! Here is one thing that always works for centering my heart: I start singing worship songs to Him. I can usually tell how far off my attitude is by my hesitancy and authenticity of my worship. Sometimes, I am truly not aware of how off kilter I have become. I choose to recall events in my life where He worked miracles and how grateful I am He still does. Do I always do this? Nope. I make so many mistakes so the times I get it right, I remember… sometimes! 😂
I close with an invitation for you and I to deliberately set time aside for seeking God tomorrow… whatever that looks like for you. Fifteen minutes is a great place to start if this is new. I started with a Children’s Bible because I wanted the summation of His Truth. It doesn’t have to be fancy or elaborate. Sometimes for me, it is a cry and confession to God about something that is hurting me. This is what I love about having a relationship rather than a religion. God is personal and He knows You and I better than we know ourselves. Surrendering to an unknown is terrifying, whether in every day life or on a mission trip. I relate. I wish I could say I do it easily, cheerfully and constantly. I should by now. However, I am very much in process and am glad that He has not given up on me.
Day One Truths:
It’s not about me.
It’s not for me.
It’s not to elevate me.
It’s about YOU.
Be about the business of remaining.
I can trust God. (This was the overwhelming truth He branded on my heart this trip. I have struggled with trust as long as I can remember, so this was very significant to me.
Heaston #teamhaiti2018 members